This work is about the struggle of growing up and becoming an adult.
My first child was born in 2009. His birth posed severe challenges to myself and my family: the dramatically changed personal roles and circumstances drove anxiety, fear and spiritual fatigue to our everyday lives, as we struggled to adapt to such seemingly insurmountable challenges. Frightened and anxious, I decided to leave the family and underwent a long-term psychotherapeutic treatment to face these challenges more courageously. Recalculating is my elaboration on this one-and-a-half-year therapy, which resulted in my return to wife and child. The series features 14 symbolic and intimate photographs accompanied by extracts of texts from correspondence between myself and the therapist, and a larger triptych that serves as a visual statement of fatherhood.